The period between 1993 and 2003 are specifically what I refer to as 'The Hibernation Years'. The timeline is now picked up just about a year after the Scottish rock band witnessed the shape-shifting in Reading town centre, and just a month after I had the MIB who had told me there would be very serious consequences if I spread my 'contagion'.
So I decided to comply, I had a feeling I had to sever contact with everybody who I had associated with. Clive's letters went unread, as did those of another researcher friend, Mary. I wrote no more correspondence to the rock band, and several other associates suddenly lost contact with me. I explained to Shelagh that this had to happen, I also explained to her at this time what the 'contagion' was that my MIB had warned me about. This was reference to the 'wormhole' I had seen open up in my bedroom wall some years previous and I had seen a very alien universe. 'something' had come through and acted as a contagion that infected AI elements that were in contact with us. This is very difficult to explain in words. But as previously stated. the human collective consciousness creates imagery, symbols and even entities that not only have occult and magical significance, but are used as a means of communication not only between the human conscious and unconscious, but for higher, angelic intelligences. Like all things there is a darker, negative side to this, and the 'contagion' the MIB had made reference to, was the infection that came through the wormhole and seeded itself in the AI elements that had contact with me. These could be passed into the aura of those around me who were susceptible.
I know that the warning came slightly too late because one or two were infected with negative AI even before I could break my contact with them. One of the key researchers working alongside me suddenly claimed clairvoyant connections that she had never demonstrated before, claiming she had contact with an intelligence that made Red Eagle's guidance redundant, this woman then tried setting herself up as my principle medium to replace Shelagh! efforts she had never shown signs of doing before this time. within a week of severing contact with my former associates, Shelagh had word from her ex that kali had died suddenly and with no obvious cause. Days later we heard of the sudden deaths of both Liz Frampton, who had been a healing patient, who had seen me turn into a grey during a healing session, and Vera, a very close personal friend of Shelagh's. three deaths in the same week was a terrible consequence to bear. There was no direct evidence linking them, but could we ignore the possibility? the MIB had warned of consequences.
So in my mind, with both Shelagh and I having Man In Black visits, and each being warned we need to stop what we are doing. I am reasonably convinced these visitors bore no hostile intent towards us.
I am not sure if that has been explained well, but I can try again if needed.
The next ten years saw me concentrate on little more than a regular 9-5 job. We still regularly walked round Whiteknights. There was no dog with us, of course, but we still spoke to Red Eagle and working on spirit rescue of a seeming army of earth-bound Knight Templars. Whether they were a genuine situation or dredged from our imaginations, we could not say, but certainly, the tales Shelagh got from them was interesting, in some cases quite extraordinary. If this was all imagination then we should have been film script writers.
All this came to an abrupt end in 2000. In 1985 Shelagh had developed type 2 diabetes. This occurs mainly in people over 40. The first-line treatment is diet, weight control and physical activity. If the blood glucose level remains high despite these measures, then tablets to reduce the blood glucose level are usually advised. Insulin injections are needed in some cases. Other treatments include reducing blood pressure if it is high, lowering high cholesterol levels and also other measures to reduce the risk of complications.
Shelagh's deterioration was slow but gradual, she watched what she ate and tried to deal with her weight. But by 1997 she was on injections. Her passing in 2000 was due to a stroke.
over a couple of years either side of Shelagh's passing, there was experiences of bi-location and 'invisibility'. There had been one or two random events of this nature in the late 80s. On one occasion Shelagh walked into our book-lined study. I was looking for a particular book when she walked in. I turned to face her but was surprised when she walked past, just inches from me and stood looking out of the window for a moment. Then she walked past again and left the room. Later I asked her why she had ignored me and she replied that she thought I had been in there, but didn't see me so assume I had left. She was startled when I told her I had been in there, and saw her go look out of the window. I showed her exactly where I had been standing and she remarked that as she passed that spot she had felt a cold shudder.
A second event happened just a few weeks later. I had walked with a friend to the railway station to see her off home. She boarded the train and I sat on a bench waiting for her to leave. I then saw her look around through the window slightly puzzled. Then she spotted me and waved. I was then rather puzzled as to why she had behaved like that. One letter later she explained that she had seen me sit down, then she rummaged in her bag for a moment, looking back up she didn't see me. Then several people walked between her and the 'empty' bench, and when they passed she saw me sitting where I had been before. Very odd.
There were a couple more over the next few years, random and just as inexplicable. In March 2001 I was in the canteen at a local supermarket I was working in when a colleague came in for his break. He stood still in the doorway and asked 'what the hell you doing here?' I pointed at a mug and said 'tea break?' remarkably he told me he had spent the last five minutes talking to me. I had been filling a shelf and telling him that I would soon be making a 'fresh start in some new work'. I assured him I had been in the canteen for at least 10 minutes, he insisted he had spoken to me in the store less than three minutes ago. Apparently I did seem dreamy and distant when we were chatting. I can add nothing more to this, I didn't feel that anything out of the ordinary had occurred while I sat there with my tea.
I missed Shelagh, a lot, obviously. But I was consoled in 'knowing' she wasn't far away. It is very strange when I think of it now, but even then, after she had gone and our 'mission' appeared to have finished, I had a feeling it had not ended, there was more to do, but not yet.
I do not want to enter into some very personal and intimate issues. But I felt I was just a shadow passing through life at this stage, over the years between 1998 and 2005, I had become much less a personality, becoming much more a 'blank canvas'. For those seven years, which is quite a long time, I felt I was vanishing, almost being erased. I simply cannot describe it better than that. I know it sounds a very odd thing to say, but I went through being a non-entity, like I was an empty vessel, or an animated object in which everything except the survival needs were dormant.
2003 was when I began to wake up. This was when I started to recognise I needed a massive change in the entire makeup of my existence. I woke up recognising the person I was, was dead. Had been dying for quite some while and is why I was just a walking shell. This transformation of the Self took another six years. But with a move to Manchester in 2007 and GRS in 2009. The experience associated with this has been detailed in the entry titled 'Reincarnation'.
I returned home a completely different person in body, mind, and more profoundly, soul. Within weeks I knew I had a new phase of my 'mission', this was to be accomplished as a re-engineered soul, and would begin in early 2012. Three years time.
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